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Well here I am, in my new place. The dogs are starting to settle in and I got my new couch on Saturday. Unfortunately, I ran into some problems with cable and the internet so I have to post from my iPhone.
I move out on Friday. I went back over to the house to get my bathroom stuff (toothbrush, etc.) and help her move some furniture. Everytime I opened my mouth, she had something snarky to say. It was like she was trying to hurt my feelings. I finally got fed up and stormed out of the house. She texted me later to say she was sorry, but I'm not sure she even understood why I was upset. I wish my last four or five days there had been better, but she had no interest. I was like a ghost. She has more important things to deal with than my feelings I guess.
So here I am, just me and the dogs. No cable or internet and too much time to think.
I move out on Friday. I went back over to the house to get my bathroom stuff (toothbrush, etc.) and help her move some furniture. Everytime I opened my mouth, she had something snarky to say. It was like she was trying to hurt my feelings. I finally got fed up and stormed out of the house. She texted me later to say she was sorry, but I'm not sure she even understood why I was upset. I wish my last four or five days there had been better, but she had no interest. I was like a ghost. She has more important things to deal with than my feelings I guess.
So here I am, just me and the dogs. No cable or internet and too much time to think.
posted by Bat at 1:37 AM
9 Comments:
I hate having to move utilies around when moving because there is always one that gets messed up or delayed. Why not go explore your new area, get the dogs out of the house and take them for a walk or local park?
Thanks for the tip! That's actually what I just finished doing. At least the dogs get to sniff new stuff. Bright side to everything ya know?
Here's my dry unemotional overscientific comment/suggestion:
Studies have shown that just 80 minutes of cardio exercise (20 minutes 4 times a week) eliminates most people's symptoms of depression without therapy or anti-depressant medications.
Add two doggies in the mix, bring it up to 7 times a week instead of 4, and you'll soon be looking and feeling like a total babe magnet!
Do you miss her or the IDEA of being with her. Do you miss someone who can so easily dismiss you? Were there signs previously you missed? Can you say to yourself, on some level, in some way, I am better without this? I hate to say this, but having kept track of the blog for many months, you were used. Age difference? Maturity? I don't know. But she's clearly moving on. Don't hang onto the fringes. Let go, it's better for you and you know it.
I agree with Anonymous, I read both Blogs for sometime and always thought there was something off from her side, her mentions of her Ex did not always sit right and showed a great deal of immaturity. I am sure she was/is a good person, just someone that has not found herself. It would have been nice for you to help her find herself, but that is something only she can do. I say be thankful for the time you spent together and move on. I don't think this new experiment will work and you should not be around to pick up the pieces. Someone that can discard you like that is not worth it, no matter how much you want her to be.
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I never felt like she took advantage of me. If anything, I took her for granted. There were signs but I was in denial or chose to not take them seriously.
I still love her and she knows that. I would do just about anything for her and I hope she doesn't take advantage of that.
I have followed her blog for about a year and commented a number of times. Something definitely seemed off with her, but it is sorta pointless to start with a list. Having gone through this myself with a wife, I literally do feel your pain.
My dog was also my therapy to heal my broken heart. I waited about three months before I started socializing with other women and then another month or so before I started dating. I had the time of my life because I was ready to start enjoying their company and not looking for a replacement.
It is sad to see you in such pain, but she had an emotional affair for a while and finally, she did the deed in Las Vegas. You have suffered a big loss here, but it was in the cards for you to get trumped eventually.....
Hang in there, someday a real woman will realize how wonderful you really are and mean it!!!!
Well I am glad they are your dogs, they will make you feel so much better. This is a new chapter in your life, make it a good one not a sad one. When my boyfriend dumped me, I thought my whole world was falling apart but I am glad he did because I am now with someone clearly much better than him and have been happy for 7 years with him. Looking back my boyfriend was a jerk so I am glad now that he did dump me.
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